Hmm, dont know if this will help but here goes.... i wanted to quit last year and did for a day or so before i concluded i was drinking way too much. I researched a lot of strategies. I ultimately found that a model that i simplified to work for me. Enter the beer journal.

First i stopped all whiskey and tequila. No more liquor. I then tried to magically start stretching an 18 pack of beer over two days. I could not do it consistently.

The second phase was just to calmly write down why, when, what and when finished. It didnt matter hiw much i was drinking - i was just writing it down in the hopes of finding some weakness in the pattern that i could exploit. I found no pattern. I just drank impulsively, without thought.

The third phase was writing about. Why i drank, what it was doing to me and what i wanted. I also had been focusing on people i can relate to or i admire and focused on the sober ones. Seeing these guys happy and enjoying life was somerhing imaspired for. I just wanted to smile again and from some twisted joke but from happiness and peace.

The next phase was to stop thinking about it and start doing it. I would write down the days goal in the morning and just record the results. Much my suprise i was able to accomplish most of them. The seventh and last day of my taper i didnt meet my goal and was bummed. The next day i concluded to just try today. Thats when this sub really helped.

I'm scared out of my mind to slip because looking back in it, i was gone. I dont know why or how but my last emergency switch was hit and i was scuttling the ship. To be here is awesome but there is a hole in my stomach full of fear. The greatest of which is relapsing.

This sub, some good friends, and complete strangers have helped me.

In hindsight I should have talked to my doctor of 7 years or so and gotten his help. I just didnt know how to ask for it.